Going into my new life

Hey guys!

Much has happened and I think it will be long post because I have so much on my mind. Where do start? Well I graduated! Whooooohoooo.  It was one of the happiest days of my life. I looked soooo pretty even though yeah I am fat but I do think I was one of the most beautiful looking girls there. It was because it meant so much to me. Here is one picture of my class who made it through 3 years and finally graduated :) 

I am very happy with my dress how it came out. It took me and my "teacher" who helped me to make it 3 days to make that dress. It's my dream dress. I've wanted something like that long maxi dress with red and black lace for 2-3 years now. I was even looking pictures of red and black (lace) dresses online. And it fits me perfectly. I got so many positive feedback. But it wasn't only feedback. I also gave speech. Usually students just go there and thank their teachers but I actually had a speech. And even people whom I didn't expect to like it said that they got tears in their eyes. I started it with greeting and then place from Bible. It talked about time. How there is time for everything. Then there was some memories of school how it was and what had happened with some quotes and then I wrote one poem I found on internet. I ended it with thanking our teachers and giving them gifts.

Couple days after finishing school I went to Tallinn for a week. I had exams to get into university. My plan was to go to one university to study fashion design/making clothes but just in case I also applied to Tallinn's University to study art. I loved those exams. First we had to write essay about what is art for me, why I want to study it and what one pictures we had to choose, talks to us. Writing it all made me remember why I love art and how big passion I have for art. Next day we had to draw portrait. It was my first time to draw someone who is really sitting in front. It was fun. I really did enjoy it and that model who was over 50 years old was with very cool personality. And then after that we had another task to paint three objects, playing with colors and contrast and sizes. And then last day we had interview. I got in both and it was really hard to choose which one to study, I decided to study clothes. 

I also visited church in Tallinn what I've always wanted to visit. I or well my mom, older sister and brother they know pastor and his wife from Bible school. From the first minute I stepped in there I felt that I have finally arrived home. It was warmest welcome in any churches I had ever been. And when I move to Tallinn in end of August then I will go to that church and they already want me to help in church work. I'm excited and waiting what God has for me :) It will be some amazing time in Tallinn. Talking about God and faith, I started reading one book. It's about intimacy with God, 30 day journey. And over long time I read Bible. I think currently my favorite book in Bible in Job. I love to read about God's greatness and how big and powerful He is. It makes me think that if He is so amazing and big then there is no doubt that He can take care of me. It all makes me want to search Him more and get more closer to Him. Lately I've also chatted with one friend. I never thought that I have anything common with him but I enjoy chatting with him. He gives me strength to keep looking for God and talking to him makes me want to seek God more and more. He doesn't judge but he is there to listen and tell his thoughts. I'm so thankful to God for a friend like him. This friendship really means lot to me :)

But anyway it came out really long and it's 3.12 already and I need to drive my sister and cousin to camp in the morning so I need to get some sleep.

Song what is playing now:
"Here I am. Finding my way to you... I know you can hear me. I feel you near. I wanna be with you now so I close my eyes... Take my life... Take all my emptiness, I fill it with you. Break through with all my selfishness, make me new."