Extraordinarily ordinary

My life has had lot of ups and downs lately. I have thought so much about things and tried to fix things on my own. I have tried to be the best on my own and tried to help everyone and stuff but I realised that I'm not able to fix everything on my own. It's not gonna work. So on Friday when I was driving to Tartu with Ahti, I had some chat with him and we ended it up there that some preachers and pastor they might by best ones in the world but one is telling one thing and other is telling totally different and you have no idea who you should listen. What God wants us is to listen our heart cause He spokes there what is right and what is wrong. When we get saved we were redeemed by the blood of Christ and we don't have to feel guilty by our deeds. It is what Satan wants us: to feel guilty. We are saved by God's grace and nothign what we do can take this away or add it there.He loves us with all of his heart, from bottom of his heart!
This weekend has been amazing. God has spoken so much into my life. Made me understand of things and fixed things in me. I was able to forgive to someone and it made me free. I have laughed, danced and just had fun in the presence of Lord and this feeling is too amazing to put it into words. So I'm exited about going back into my everyday ordinary life to life it extraordinarily with God. (:
Love you all!
Hugs, kisses.

Hei hei people.
I just watched one nature movie about earth. It was amazing. Made me think about the life and God's work. It's amazing how He has put everything in work. Even though yeah thanks to global warming some animals are going to die but still all this world, nature everything it's just amazing.
I'm going around here in Ireland, looking those cliffs and roads and landscape and I'm amazed by all those differences about two countries. And well no need to point out my brother's church. I just absolutely love it. LOVE IT! It's mainly black people and it's real. They are serving living God not just some religious stuff.
And all those castles, old houses, fortresses in Ireland makes me wish to move here.
But I wanna come back by 18th November when they have women's conference here. Need to pray and see maybe I can come... For weekend. Would be great.
Love you all... have fun. Hugs, kisses <3

Trust yourself

I know I have to trust myself more. If I am sure about someone I have to stop doubting, have to stop listenign others and HAVE TO trust myself! Like darn I don't have words... Past 2 days have been crazy. I feel so empty so crazy. I feel like I should lock myself into my room and get out only for school and stuff like that and stop talkign with people but I am not able to stop friendship with some friends I love. Some people are just waaaay too important for me . I know it all will just calm down and will be fine. But yeah note for myself: TRUST YOURSELF!
Hugs people, love you!

Kallikesele!!!!

Kuna tänane kaart jäi andmata ja igatsus on suur siis tahaksin pühendada selle posti ühele kallikestest! Oled mulle tohutult tähtis, ääretult kallis ja ülimalt oluline. Üks vajalikematest inimestest mulle. Ma võin küll tujutseda ja masetseda aga sinu sõprus on kahesajakuuekümnega eriline. Oled olemas kui sind vajan. Oled kui kallihinnaline pärl mida tuleb hoida. Oled nii armsalt siiras, jah võid küll olla blondu aga sa oled lihtsalt nii imeline inimene! Sa väärid nii palju paremat ja ma olen kindel, et saad seda kõike omama! Oled suure osa mu südamest hõivanud. Aitäh, et eksisteerid! Kallis oled!
Armastusega,
Monza.