Thoughts (:

Hey hey guys!

I feel very happy and amazing. Just came back from youth Christmas party and we had amazing worship time there. I haven't spend much time on God lately and there I suddenly felt how much I was missing him and desired Him. Then I just understood that He actually miss me more and He desire to me is much bigger. I understood that when we are hurt or far from Him then He is actually crying for us. He is waiting us, calling us every possible way. Think about sunrise. Its first thing in the morning He sends to make us happy and most of us just miss it. Then birds singing, or sparkling snow, starry sky. Aren't those just so beautiful things made by God just to make us happy and show us His love? Our hearts burn for Him but His heart is totally burning for us. He wants the best for us. Not just best but THE best. Best husband, family, life, school, job, church...etc. He is waiting you till the last minute. Sometimes we are too afraid to take the steps or go with the changes. We need to give ourselves as clay into His hands to make us perfect.

His love for us is so great. Like one girl once said that when we worship God then our hearts beat in same rhythm. I felt it today during the worship. I was one with Him. Just fell in my knees and talked with Him. I felt what  was missing. I found that love again and fell in love again. I want to wake up to spend my day with Him. I am His bride. He is waiting me all the time. Even just small minute or two to tell me how important I am. He is waiting you just to tell you how important you are and how loved you are!

Hey guys.
Sorry for I haven't posted for a long time. I just haven't have thoughts and time and I actually didn't want to post anything.
I was just reading some posts in Larissa's blog (with google help) and it was really helpful to me. Some things what has been going on in my life. Not always it may seem that I am christian cause of my words or way I'm living. But I'm trying hard and really wish to give everything into God's hands. He has the best for me and He knows what is forward. I know he has some great plans for me it's just I am afraid to recive them. I'm afraid of new things, new beginnings. Afraid to start from nowhere with nothing. I don't know much about plans He has for me but I know little and already those little things I really love and enjoy but there comes fear with them. 2 Timothy chapter 1 verse 7 says "For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind."
Often it's difficult not to be afraid. All those new things, choices leading something. I am drama group leader now and sometimes it seems to be too much for me but I enjoy it even if I feel like I want to give up. Sometimes it seems like I m only onw who is interested about it, only one who is commited to it. Only thing I can do is to give it to God to work with the people and time.
If you are still waiting post about missiontrip to Latvia then I'm sorry I wont put any post about that trip. I just say some small sentences. It was great time. Awesome time to learn how to trust God, time to get to knwo ech other, time to give ourselves and out time to God. We saw how God was moving there and is doing his marvellous job in Latvia. At least 3 of my dreams became true in there.
I just want to ask everyoen to pray for us, for drama group and for Latvia!
Hugs and kisses to you all!

GRETEKESEKESELE

Kallis, armas, tore, nunnu, huvitav, ilus, lahe, suurepärane, abivalmis, hea, lõbus, lahke Grete! (Ära arva, et mul omadussõnad otsa said, lihtsalt mõtlesin teemaga edasi minna ;)

Palju Palju õnne ja õnnistusi, kuhjaga naeru ja rõõmu ning tonnide viisi kallistusi ja armastust sulle uude eluaastasse!

Las meie Taevane Issi täidab selle oma plaanidega ja sinu südame igatsustega!
Oled mulel kõige kallim Grete. Ja kuigi ma võin su peale tihti "solvuda" on sinuag väga lahe ja lõbus koos olla (eriti jünger)
Ja loodetavasti saab seda aega jälle varsti tulema ;)
Miljon kallit, paid ja musi sulle!!

Love

One day during my Bible reading I found some verses and as I have lot of things to do about love, I saw those verses also to be about love.

First one was  in Ecclesiates 1:7-8 "All the rivers run into the sea, yet the sea is not full. To the place from which the rivers come, to there and from there they return again. All things are weary with toil and all words are feeble; man cannot utter it. The eye is not satisfied with seeing, nor the ear filled with hearing."

For me it talks about love. People need love. Our cup won't never be filled with love or maybe it is sometimes filled but we drink it and need to fill it again. My eye won't never be satisfied of seeing my love and my ear won't be satisfied of hearing my love.

Then I found Ecclesiates 3:14 "I know that whatever God does, it endures forever; nothing can be added to it nor anything taken from it so that men will fear Him revere and worship Him, knowing that He is." 

So if God puts this love into our hearts it's forever lasting we can't add or take anything away from our flesh. And I've seen that if we have this love to God and if I have this love what God has given to me and if I give this love to someone else, to someone who also loves God the God grows this love. God is able to do all things. And verse 15 says that God seeks that what has passed by. So if we forget what God has given to us then He will wke it again.

Song of Salomon 8:7 says that many waters cannot erase love, neither can floods drown it.

At the moment I'm reading book called "Five languages of love". I haven't read much yet but one thing I liked from there was that falling in love isn't love yet. This first period is about 2 years and then it just fade away. After that many couples just divorce. Some of them choose to swallow the pain and just live  but some of them choose to learn to love their partner. Love is a choise, it's not feelingg. I've decided to love the one I've falled in love even after that period and with his help and with God's love I can do it.

At the end I would like to share some of my favourite verses:

First is Song of Salomon 2:16a "My beloved is mine and I am his."
Second is Song of Salomon 7:10 "I am my beloved's and his desire is toward me!"

And well ofcourse 1 Corinthians 13 is good scripture about love (I like The message version most)

Kisses

Mission with Brazilians 1

Now I'm driving around Estonia. More specifically, I am in South Estonia on a mission trip with 3 Brazilians (another group with 3 Brazilians is in North Estonia).
It started on a mission seminar in Pärnu where we were for 4 days. It was an amazing time there with all those people, prayers, dances, dramas, meeting. God showed me so many things during the meetings, during my Bible-reading and time of prayer.
I have seen angels coming down, I have seen angels coming down from heaven to brings God's presence, I have seen demons and fight between good and evil. I have seen God's plan for different people, for different places. And I know God has something great for this week.

On Sunday we were in orphanage in Taheva and it was good there. On Monday we had basically the whole day free. Just for resting and barbecueing and then 2 hours practising later. Dramas and dances.  But on Tuesday we went to hospital to visit elderly people with mental disabilities who are living there. It was good. We had prepared a children program to them and they enjoyed it very much. Later at night we went to Veriora to have a youth event and it was great. Youth were really paying attention and enjoying it. We did 2 dramas, ALL dances and we have ,like, 5 dances + samba. And we had music and show about Brazil. It was great. They were opened and having fun there and I saw how God was powerfully moving there.
Today we went to Viitka to have a meeting there and I haven't felt so big resistance before. Enemy was really, really attacking there. I know that God was doing powerful work there but I myself felt really difficult there. I can't explain. So guys, if you read this, I want to ask everyone to pray for me and for this trip. I need every prayer I can get. So I will upload soon again if I have time and possibilities.
Hug and kisses and be very very blessed.

Some thoughts

I was listening song by FFH called "On my cross" and it really touched me.
Lately my life has been really messed up. I say  I am christian but it doesen't seem so. All drinkings and relations I have. And  I want to be youth leader.  I can't be a role model with that kind of attitude what   I have right now. If people knew what life I'm living they would be really suprised. It don't look like me.

So I was listening trough my videos on orkut.com and there was that song "On My Cross". I like to listen songs when I have lyrics with me too so  I searched them and that song just talked to me. If you are interested then you can search them by yourself.

Anyway I started to think who am I. Why Jesus died for me when He knew that I will sin again. Why would He love me so much that He went somewhere were I should have gone. He had nails in his arms because of me. I don't deserve that love He has for me. Why He still trust in me and have His hopes on me?

He don't give up on me why should I? He sees my heart so I believe He sees somethign more what I can see. Today in the morning I was totally depressed. I wanted to broke all mirrors I have because I didn't like myself. I was so depressed that I didn't say good things even to my very dear friend. And after that song everything changed. He sees me perfect as I am. He sees deepest in my heart. He sees what others can't see. He sees all hurt I have and all love I have. He sees everything. We can't hide anything from Him. He is still waiting there. He don't take our fears and pain when we don't give it to Him. He is waiting us to take the step.

He died for us because He loved us and because He sees what we are worth.

Help!!!

I really need all your prayers! I have so much to do in school. Basically  whole year with 1-2 weeks.  I can't do it all alone. I need God's supernatural help for that and every prayer you can send to Daddy for me ;) Thank you so much.

Ma tõesti vajan teie kõigi palveid! Mul on nii palju koolsi teha. Põhimõtteliselt terve aasta 1-2 nädalaga. Ma ei suuda seda üksi. Ma vajan Jumala üleloomulikku abi ja teie igat palvet mis te võite saata Issile minu eest. Suured suured tänud!

Wonderful God.

 Jumal on ikka nii imeline. Veetsin nädal aega grupiga Rootsi piiblikoolist. Elasin nendega nädal aega Pääste Armees ja nägin seda suurt ühtsust, armastust ja hoolivust. Nägin ja tundsin kuidas Jumal liikus, kuidas ta puudutas noori.
Jumal ei otsi neid kes on südamelt puhtad. Ta ei otsi neid kes on täiuslikud. Ta otsib neid kes on valmis teda teenima. Oled sa valmis? Sa ei pea saama enne kõigest vabaks. Sa pead lihtsalt tahtma anda oma südame talle.
Ta on armastav issi. Ta ootab sind. Ootab, et sina astuksid esimese sammu lähemale talle. Kui sa astud lähemalt talle sammukene ja tundub, et kõik on aian raskem siis tea, tema astub kaks sammu lähemale sulle. Ära anna alla vaid mine edasi ja sa näed tulemusi!

Muide, 24.juuni kuni 3 juuli olen ma norra grupiga koos. Võru misjonipäevade raames ja hiljem meto noortelaagris. Nii tõlgiks kui ka noortelaagris ILMSELT draama workshopi juht. Oeh ma nii ootan. Saan huvitav aeg olema. Enne aga pean saama kooliga kõik korda, seega palvetage mu eest jätkuvalt. Ma vajan seda (:
Aitäh. Kalli-kalli


God is so wonderful.I spent one week with a group from one Swedish Bible school. I lived with them in Salvation Army a week and I saw that great unity, love and caring what they had for others. I saw and felt how God was moving and touching youths.
God don't look those who are clean in their hearts. He don't look perfect people. He is looking those who are ready to serve Him. Are you ready? You don't have to clean your heart first. You just have to give everythign to Him.
He is loving daddy and he is waiting you. Waiting for you to take first step closer to Him. If take that step and everything still seems so hard then know  that when you take one step closer to Him, He takes two steps closer to you. Don't give up, go forward and you will see results.

By the way from 24th of June to 4th of July  i will be with group from Norway in mission days in Võru and later in methodists youth camp. Will be translating there and PROBABLY i will be drama workshop leader in camp.I'm sooooo waiting it. It will be interesting time. But first I need to get finished everythign with my school, so I still need your prayer.

Thank you and much hugs and kisses!

Almost saved

I was just watching http://www.p4cm.com And there was one man talking about almost saved. That made me think that we never know who really is saved. They can say: "God bless you brother" but never mean what are they asking. They may ask: "Dear sister, do you have any prayer requests?" but never pray. Guys when you are almost saved it's like you mean ok I will give my life to Lord at 10 but then you die at 9. Almost Chsitian is only on a outside christian, a sunday christian. You can't be almost saved. Are you willing to send your children to a school what is almost safe? Or girls, will you date a guy who is almost straight? God didn't almost gave His life for you, He don't love you almost. He totally loves you and He sure gave His life for you. So make your choise to be saved almost or most saved?
God's love is filling all wholes in your heart even if you have lived totally wrong or almost right. He's love is there to help you up. He is there to love you most. You can't fine that kind of love nowhere else. He's love isn't almost love. With him you can't be almost loved!
Don't think about what you've done or haven't done. Forget all almost right choises. You are worthy God's love. I'm not talking about almost worthy but fully  worthy.

Time to have more of God

Hey everyone.
I just wanted to say that this year is to have more of God. We have to get our relations with God stronger than ever before. God has spoken to many people that same thing. And so many of my friends feel in their hearts that it's time to get closer with Him. It really is year to built our foundations stong. We are living in ending times and only thing or only person we can depend on is Jesus. When we have out of strengh then He is out strengh. We have to get that base we have, that fundament stong.
That's all I wanted to say for now. Just pray more, seek God more, talk to Him more. Let Him talk to you more than ever before. Let Him hold you more, care for you more. Just seek Him more and more everyday.
Many blessings and hugs.

"Redeeming Love" by Francine Rivers

I'm reading a book called "Redeeming Love" by Francine Rivers. One of the best book I have ever read.At the end Francine wrote why she wrote that book and how she came to that place to write it. It talkes about God's love to us. That whatever we do His love is unconditional, forgiving, uncganging, everlasting, self-sacrificing. He don't care how much we have sinned, He cares about our heart. All people are looking that kind of love in tle life but only place they can find it is  before God. He still loves us even when we have done bad things or stuff what makes people hate us. Even when we turn our back to Him, He is still there for us. We just have to trust Him and believe in Him. He believes in us. That we will make it or that. He is always waiting us to go and talk with Him. Always waiting to get hug us and hold us and just comfort us. Sometimes we don't have enough faith or strength then we have Hid strenght, we may not have enough joy then we can have His joy maybe we don't have enough love - we can have His love. He loves us more than you can ever imagine.