19 May 2014

Relationships

I thought other day why I have had so many relations. Around 6-ish. I have had discussions with many people. And so often those who are slimmer and thinner they have had like 1-3 relation at my age. Then I was thinking why I or so many bigger girls have so many relations. I can't talk about others but what I thought was that it's because we need to feel wanted somehow. Need to feel beautiful. If you have boyfriend then no one can say that you are so fat that can't even get a boyfriend. It feels like you always need to prove yourself. Prove that you can have "normal" life, can have boyfriends, that people can look at you and think like you are normal girl. Having boyfriend gives confident. You feel like at least someone wants you, someone loves you, someone thinks you are beautiful :) I know it's wrong and shouldn't be like that but it is. I know I am pretty but still.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

We really don't need people's affirmation.God's word has given us all the affirmation we could and will ever need(...we are fearfully and wonderfully made :))

Anonymous said...

U're beautiful & wanted anyway :) & u're still dear to me ;)

monZa said...

Thank you Darlings. For first post, Joe, I know that all we need is God and his affirmation but still in times it comes. And I just wrote my thoughts here. I was discussing with someone other day why I have had so many relations and came to this. And it was truth. I need to feel I am wanted. Need to feel I am needed.

About second post, Darling, if you would've not told me it was you I might have guessed but wouldn't be 100% sure. Anyway I was surprised. I don't think I am wanted by you anymore even though I would love to be. But it's good to know that I am dear to you. Really is. :) Love you.